Open WOD 13.1 ~
17 minute AMRAP of:
30 Snatch, 75 / 45 lbs
30 Snatch, 135 / 75 lbs
30 Snatch, 165 / 100 lbs
Max rep Snatch, 210 / 120 lbs
I’m clear what happened here…I didn’t get the first 75# snatch on the first pull and I became vulnerable. I made a few more attempts and then I was totally exposed.
Then the tears started…not a lot, but enough that I had to look away and collect myself..again and again. The entire week I had been holding it all together, right there during the WOD it started to unleash itself. The barbell stripped me of my mental toughness and my physical strength. It made me think about all the things I didn’t want to and had muscled through during the week.
My Dad, my only parent, has to have open heart surgery. I’m confident in the surgeon, but he’s my only parent. The thought of living so much of my life without my mom and my dad was unbearable in that moment…and I broke.
It’s okay though…
It took me years to fully appreciate the value of the lessons I have learned from the Iron. I used to think that it was my adversary, that I was trying to lift that which does not want to be lifted. I was wrong. When the Iron doesn’t want to come off the mat, it’s the kindest thing it can do for you. If it flew up and went through the ceiling, it wouldn’t teach you anything. That’s the way the Iron talks to you. It tells you that the material you work with is that which you will come to resemble. That which you work against will always work against you.
Today, the Iron taught me to stop, to breathe, to love fully and to love myself.